Know Thyself

I am happy one of my friends will get married soon, one and half year the latest. She will be just 22 to 23 at that moment. Amazing! 
M : "Sudah berapa lama pacaran?"
C : "Hampir 2 tahun."
M : "Hah? Baru hampir 2 tahun mau married? Sudah siap lahir dan batin?"
C : "Yah. Nggak tau juga. Perbedaan married ato ndak kan cuman tinggal serumah ato ndak. Pagi-pagi pergi kerja. Malam-malam tidur."
M : "Bukan cuman itu kali. Ntar punya anak bagaimana?"
C : "HAH? JANGAN DULU LAH ANAK." (tiba-tiba berdiri dari tempat tidur)
K : "Sy susah membayangkanmu. Bangun pagi aja ga bisa."
C : "Loh dia yang bangunkan aku lah."
M : "Satu kelebihan C, dia bisa masak."
C : "Iyo toh. Dia bangunkan saya, baru sy masak."
M : "Well, yang penting km yakin dia …. (*disensor dikit, agak menjijikkan*)
C : "Bagaimana ndak? Sy rasanya seperti princess dalam cerita dongeng. Kek tadi, sy sudah sms ke bawah, sy ndak mau makan soto, dia sengaja naik lagi nawarin. Kamarku dia yang ngepel. Bla bla bla. Mungkin karena umurnya, orang udah jadi lebih dewasa."
M : "Dia yang pel kamarmu?"
C : "Iyo. Dia kan ga bisa kalo liat kamar kotor."
M : "Dia ndak marah ato at least ngomel?"
C : "Hah? Nda."
M : "Dia sayang sekali sama km yo sampe begitu sukarela?"
C : "Nggak tau. Yang saya takut yang seperti sekarang ini cuman sementara. Semakin lama ama orang, perasaan itu sudah seperti kakak dan adik. Sayang sama orang karena udah terbiasa sama-sama."
And then whom we are talking about coming into the room. About 30 minutes I am with this couple, I realize already, he is such a very nice person and he loves my friend very much. Nothing to worry after all.

I have another friend who will start her training on next Monday. Good luck, we will meet in Korea! And I haven’t met yet two friends I really want to. Today I hope!

Recently I feel I have caused much trouble to many people : problems to
solve, complaints to hear, time to spend, etc etc etc, I am sorry, I am very sorry.
This is not a death message after all :). But I just think I need to grow
up more. As days go by, a person should be tougher and maturer, not the
vice versa, supposed to be my case anyway hahaha.

And at the moment, I don’t have that feeling anymore. I think I won’t
miss Jakarta as much like the previous me do. I used to think that what
I miss the most actually is my friends, yet now, I think it’s not. I do miss them of course. But my back this time makes me realize that what I miss the most actually is my daily college
life. And it is the fact I cannot control. I never can turn back the
time. I like the unpredictable things. I like surprise. But I hate the fact I already know but I cannot change. I hate things beyond my control.

Everyone now has his and her own life. Me too. I cannot expect
everything will still be the same. Previously, I was afraid of the fact
that I’m leaving and people won’t miss me like I will and also the fact
I’m coming back, people already get used to their own life, without me.
Fortunately, they are still the same ones. They have their own lives
and that makes us have many stories to update each other. Whatever path
of life we are walking at now, we will always remember and help and
support each other, that’s all what I need :).

At last, nothing bad about the change itself as long as it’s a
progress. I believe we are all are making it. CIA YOU CIA YOU to everyone :D!

Tomorrow will be the graduation day. Don’t forget to send your greetings :). Have a pleasant day!

It is so hard to be good when you too often end up with disappointment.

After my magic sentence uttered and eyes contact done, I just won my case ^_^.

Actually nothing.
But it seems not good. So I will mention that I just learn (know) ‘BORNE’ is the past tense of ‘BEAR’. Other words : gratuity, contractual, AGM, ex-gratia, expatriate, exemption, IR8A, IR8S, Benefits-in-kinds, ESOP, ESOW. One interesting thing to highlight is about benefits-in-kinds. Swimming pool, organ, gardener are also included. Quite funny! My day is quite boring for only reading and reading this book. It’s not thick. But full of many unknown (for me) words. Actually I can finish it in 2 or 3 hours if I’m on bed with sleeping position. I don’t like reading while sitting. But now, I am given 2 days already only to read 60-80 pages.
I miss exams. I used to read the textbooks while others don’t simply because I’m not confident enough to rely on the notes. Also, I believe in ‘the longer you write, the better it will be’. So I become a writer with a long writing. Yet, deep inside my heart, I know that principle isn’t suitable with some cases. My boss said : "Are you good in writing an essay?" after reading all my codes. My habit is still inside me. This time it is a bad one!
I also miss me being nervous when I have to see the results on the web. I miss school very very much. Of all, don’t worry. I miss you still the most.

The Italian aerial Performance 18 and 19 July 2008 :

In the afternoon :

E : "So, L has confirmed to the HR department. No choice. You must take no pay leave."

M : "Ohhh. Then?"

E : "Huh? What then? Your salary will be deducted lah. I cannot do anything. It’s company’s policy."

M : "Ohhh." (Continue to work)

E : "Eh, one day deduction is very much eh. I know the formula."

J : "Heh? I wonder why you can be so cool."

E : "Next time, you must take MC."

I am lazy to debate again with them after my argue in the morning. What else can I do? The policy is just too ridiculous. Sick people must visit the doctor. Otherwise they must take annual leave instead of sick leave. Don’t they ever think sometimes when we are REALLY sick, we cannot even get up from the bed. Even when we are not REALLY sick, we are lazy to go to the doctor although we already know the company will pay us back, it’s not the problem. The problem is… not all people like to visit doctor. They want to take a rest, at home, at home, at homeeee.

I think when I go back to Indo for graduation, they will also deduct my salary because I am not supposed to take annual leave yet. Whatever……

Suang le suang le lah!

Tomorrow there will be a buffet lunch in the office. Yuhu!!!

…(JUST) three months? I feel I have been working so much much longer than that 0_o’.

At the end of one such meal we discussed, as we occasionally did, the difference in our ages. She asked, ‘Do you think that because I’m older than you are time passed more quickly for me than it does for you?’

‘Subjectively, perhaps’, I replied.

‘So does time seem to have speeded up for you too? Since you were a child, I mean.’

‘It seems to have done, yes.’

‘By how much?’

‘Difficult to say.’

‘Well, think back to how long a week seemed when you were nine years old. How many of today’s weeks would it take to fill a week back then? I mean, think about the week leading up to Christmas…’

‘Three or four, maybe. Easily.’

‘When you first met me,’ she went on, ‘I think the weeks were passing about five times as fast as they used to when I was a child. Now they’ve slowed down again. People say that when you get really old, time races by, like those speeded-up films of the sun streaking accross the sky. Dawn to dusk in seconds.’

‘I remember my grandfather telling me that time had accelerated so much for him that all he noticed was the changing seasons. He knew that time was getting on when he had to change into his winter underwear once more.’

‘Why does it happen, do you think? Is it some kind of chemical change in your brain?’

‘Locke believed that our train of thought moves at a constant speed, although Addison seemed to think that we could inflate our time by pumping it full of thoughts.’

‘Or memories.’

‘Yes, it must have something to do with memory. I mean, what else could give you your sense of how fast time passes? It’s a backwards-looking thing, must be. What gives you the sense of how long a week lasts is how long you remember it lasting.’

‘Which would partly depend on how much of it you noticed in the first place,’ she added, ‘because the less you noticed the less there would be to remember, and it would seem as though the time had been empty. Big chunks of time would become sort of … invisible to you. It would feel shorter than a week where you noticed lots of things going on.’

‘And a child notices everything, so when you’re a child each week you look back on seems filled with incident and novelty, so a week feels like a really long time.’

‘Which is why,’ she said, triumphantly claiming my hand accross the tablecloth, ‘time has slowed down again for me since you came into my life. My world is so full of new and wonderful things, I’m so much more aware of everything. When we first met I was sort of sleepwalking through life, but now I feel truly, fully conscious of every moment that passes.’

‘Must be love.’

– The Horizontal Instrument –